My Beautiful Shade

before a cleansing awakening in the hours before dawn
I realized doors once shut had reopened


by the gentle touch of aroural shadows of the night
I regained soil beneath my feet


as the sun strode from the jaded horizon
I reclaimed my halo


swirling in an endless confusing affinity 
and with jests and devils gone;
I drew a breath and accepted my flaws
expressed broken thoughts with a smile


came to terms with reality and broke through
while explaining in silence my dreams about you
how deeply these bring me joy and closure
and how I, when I wake up, 
remember nothing but the feelings 
connected to my constant reverie revolving around you


but.. this is only momentarily
when dawn breaks i forget everything about you
and carry on in an oblivious state of mind
only waiting for a sign of your presence again


you're the only one who really know me..


Goodnight my beautiful shade.


If only you knew me.